As a child, I was so shy,
I could easily hear all the adults’ conversations around me without anyone even
noticing me. Later, a teenager, I could hardly make friends so afraid that I
was of even opening my mouth to say something silly and shame myself. As a
young woman, I so awkwardly spoke; I wasn’t always with the right crowd.
But I always had to “speak”
my mind, so I wrote, on a diary, at the beginning until my mom found it and
(wait for it) judged me and punished me for my private thoughts. This was the
end of it! Lucky for me, my father bought me a computer, I was barely 10, but
it was what saved me: slowly but surely, I learned how to write my thoughts and
save them on a disk protected with a password. Necessity is the mother of
inventions right?!
A few months ago, I found
my old “thoughts” and it was (sadly) weird to find out that, sometimes, there
is still a little and scared girl in me.
Time passing by, I started
to build some kind of personae and I started this blog but until a few days
ago, I would never openly speak about it or even mention it. For a whole year,
it was mine and mine only, and slowly I started to share a few of my things with
a couple of friends of mine. But now, I think I am ready, today, I go “public”.
I understand all about the
shyness and fright of speaking up, and appreciate your kind words which mean so
much to me; which is why I adjusted my posts so anyone can just bullet rank
them until you’re up to, publicly, speak up too!
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